in the middle of a drama?

i, among those who "reject" the coupling thingy, still cannot deny that we girls are inclined to like guys. huhu, that's nature aint it? it's just how different people take it that matters...

huhu. this thing has been ongoing for a few months, but things seems to be getting worst day by day. i dont know where do i stand, i dont know where does he stand, and i dont even know whether we've stood together b4, in the first place. it didnt matter before, but it seemed to be very important lately.

farah, i'm going through only a tiny teeny bit of what u went, but it's already taking too much from me. but unlike u, it's not the pain - it is the confusion. and thanks to the gossips that's going around - i dont really know what ppl are saying, but hints are given to me - and it that seems even the "new arrival" knows about it. he cornered me into that little trap of his and i just felt like shouting at him "what did they tell u???" he's not even supposed to come into this little scene in the first place!! oh well, at least he didnt make things worst. he just made me think even more.

part of me refuses to let go, but the other part says i do not have the rights to do that. but why do i have no rights? i guess after all the thinking i've gone through, even IF we've stood together before, it does not have the power to determine what is going to happen next or what has to happen next. none of this is anybody's fault, as i do think each and every one of us is a bona fide.

so i guess that sums it all. i have to let go. it is only right to do that. not a painful decision - and i'm saying this frankly, it was only the process of "reviewing" that was a bit "yucky".

i guess i have been refusing to put up such a personal post for the past month, but maybe this is the only way we can communicate - to tell you how things are over here. to those gossiping about me, i want to make it clear that there should be no more of this matter in the future. enough is enough.

i may deny it to you, but please dont expect my heart to do so too only time will tell....