things happened lately but i havent blogged for sometime, so i guess i'll put in bits and pieces of things that happened recently, and of course, my thoughts...
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a friend asked: "what would u say if i said i want to commit suicide?"
huho. what would YOU say? my mind kept thinking and thinking. each answer that came was true, but none seemed perfect. at last, i ended up with this
"even if u did that, u wont reach a solution - because life don't just end when we die..."
hem... i just hope that'll keep her going, at least for now...
||Ya Allah, please give her strength to keep on going, to learn from Your tests, to survive this world.. ||
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"who's ur role model? who do u respect most? who do u imitate most?"
huho. i did not have any intention of making him as a role model. of course i do respect him, like really respect, tabik spring, but i thought not to the extent of making him become my role model. i dont even know the real him. but lately i've realised that i do imitate him. on purpose? ngaha. a mix of both maybe... but no, i dont think he'll become my role model.
[wait, what made me even think that there is a probability of me making him my role model? the wires in my brain are all messed up! - but it's probably becoz riGHt now, he's the only person on earth that i reAlly look up to...]
i did ask myself the same question some few years ago, and i did manage to decide who my role model was. but here's the biG problem. now things arent really well between us, so can she still be my role model? i want things to change - but i really dont know how to. this isnt just about myself. it's about communication. two people. two hearts.
then there's my naqibah. she's masyaAllah, knowledgeable. mind u, she can summon hadeeths relating to the topic that we're discussing on the spot - maybe not in arabic, but enough to explain what our Prophet s.a.w did in a related situation... plus, she pun "gempak" to some extent, u know, at the correct timing. hem, should i say balanced?
well, of course the best answer this Q should be our Prophet Rasulullah s.a.w, but no, i havent reached to that level YET. there's a big gap in my knowledge of him. ehem, yet i do almost nothing to improve on this. T_T
so what's with the role model thing actually? em, i guess ppl have to have a hero, someone to look up to, someone to give u motivation - be it directly or indirectly.
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dah jadi makcik!!!! huah huah huah. congratulations to my eldest sis yg baru gave birth to a baby boy last wednesday, 16.04.08. yep, yep. that's my first nephew. umi says he looks exactly like kakak masa baby, except the nose -he's got abg amin's nose. name? diorang belum decide lagi kot.. even if they did, kakak mcm belum nak announce lagi ;)
pandai tgk camera tu!!
very the chomel!!! masyaAllah!
~~ die tido lepas hiccup yg quite teruk ~~
sorang lagi tambah dalam keluarga yg dah mmg besar ni. ^^_ gUmbira *wink** alhamdulillah alaa kulli khoir..
|| keep our family together Ya Allah. times will change, we will we grow apart, but let not our hearts distance itself. Ya Allah, let our hearts remain close together, keep us united ||
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--there are things in life that is out of my reach, but yet it is my attitude towards it that actually determines the effect of those events--
it is I who choose what memory do i want to treasure. it is I who choose how i think of something - whether to make a big deal out of it, or just simply ignore it.
(a conclusion that i made from watching a movie the other day. of course it's something that was known since ages, but the movie was put in such a way that it really hit my circumstances. not in the same context, but very much alike in principle)
mmg sgt tak puas hati with what's going on, but i guess i'll just have to close one eye and let the other eye remain open, only to see the happy side..
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there are a few other things that kept circling in my mind, but i guess i have to save that for later - if i still remember lah.
i've got timelines to meet (altough it doesnt seem to be really effective, but i still need to at least do the most out of it..
jaane-
***
a friend asked: "what would u say if i said i want to commit suicide?"
huho. what would YOU say? my mind kept thinking and thinking. each answer that came was true, but none seemed perfect. at last, i ended up with this
"even if u did that, u wont reach a solution - because life don't just end when we die..."
hem... i just hope that'll keep her going, at least for now...
||Ya Allah, please give her strength to keep on going, to learn from Your tests, to survive this world.. ||
***
"who's ur role model? who do u respect most? who do u imitate most?"
huho. i did not have any intention of making him as a role model. of course i do respect him, like really respect, tabik spring, but i thought not to the extent of making him become my role model. i dont even know the real him. but lately i've realised that i do imitate him. on purpose? ngaha. a mix of both maybe... but no, i dont think he'll become my role model.
[wait, what made me even think that there is a probability of me making him my role model? the wires in my brain are all messed up! - but it's probably becoz riGHt now, he's the only person on earth that i reAlly look up to...]
i did ask myself the same question some few years ago, and i did manage to decide who my role model was. but here's the biG problem. now things arent really well between us, so can she still be my role model? i want things to change - but i really dont know how to. this isnt just about myself. it's about communication. two people. two hearts.
then there's my naqibah. she's masyaAllah, knowledgeable. mind u, she can summon hadeeths relating to the topic that we're discussing on the spot - maybe not in arabic, but enough to explain what our Prophet s.a.w did in a related situation... plus, she pun "gempak" to some extent, u know, at the correct timing. hem, should i say balanced?
well, of course the best answer this Q should be our Prophet Rasulullah s.a.w, but no, i havent reached to that level YET. there's a big gap in my knowledge of him. ehem, yet i do almost nothing to improve on this. T_T
so what's with the role model thing actually? em, i guess ppl have to have a hero, someone to look up to, someone to give u motivation - be it directly or indirectly.
***
dah jadi makcik!!!! huah huah huah. congratulations to my eldest sis yg baru gave birth to a baby boy last wednesday, 16.04.08. yep, yep. that's my first nephew. umi says he looks exactly like kakak masa baby, except the nose -he's got abg amin's nose. name? diorang belum decide lagi kot.. even if they did, kakak mcm belum nak announce lagi ;)
pandai tgk camera tu!!
very the chomel!!! masyaAllah!~~ die tido lepas hiccup yg quite teruk ~~
|| keep our family together Ya Allah. times will change, we will we grow apart, but let not our hearts distance itself. Ya Allah, let our hearts remain close together, keep us united ||
***
--there are things in life that is out of my reach, but yet it is my attitude towards it that actually determines the effect of those events--
it is I who choose what memory do i want to treasure. it is I who choose how i think of something - whether to make a big deal out of it, or just simply ignore it.
(a conclusion that i made from watching a movie the other day. of course it's something that was known since ages, but the movie was put in such a way that it really hit my circumstances. not in the same context, but very much alike in principle)
mmg sgt tak puas hati with what's going on, but i guess i'll just have to close one eye and let the other eye remain open, only to see the happy side..
**
there are a few other things that kept circling in my mind, but i guess i have to save that for later - if i still remember lah.
i've got timelines to meet (altough it doesnt seem to be really effective, but i still need to at least do the most out of it..
jaane-
|| Rabbi yassir walaa tu'assir. Rabbi itmim li bilkhair, Ya Kareem, Ya Raheem, Ya Allah... ||
2 comments:
:) I like your answer for the suicide comment. It's true... People should remember that their actions always have consequences, maybe later on, but they'll be there nonetheless.
Congratulations on the nephew! =D Aha, bilela I'm gonna be an auntie.. =P A long time to go, I'd say. ^^
Can I ask what's the movie that you mentioned there? I always like stories that leave a lasting impact on me. Not that I'll have the time to watch it anytime soon, but in two months I'll be freeeee~~~
Take care, salaam!
em i cant remember what movie was it - it was on hallmark channel. sory**
hem, anas is what? 21? maybe not that long... ^^_
hoho - being an aunty - it shows that time has passed by so quickly... the smaLL us have gRown, and we will continue to age...
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