something to reflect upon

i read an introduction to a book, and these words stared at me.

"feeling gratitude and not expressing it
is like wrapping a present and not giving it"

so here goes. although some may not read this, but i'd still thank them anyways


1. Ummi Habibati. i can never thank her enough. for all that she has done, for all that she has given. i dont know how to express my highest gratitudes. =X am planning to make a video, but it'll be time consuming, so i guess it'll hafta wait until my exams are over...

oh, of course my abah. funny and selalu kacau org!! although buat-buat annoyed, i've always been thankful that he's that way. lol XD. always supportive. tak pernah marah kitorang. (okay, i wasnt around him when the news of my "biggest sin" was brought to him - which was maybe why i was saved.. but he only made a joke of it later ^__^) haaa... tapi kalau sekali abah tegur, bartaubat takmo buat dah!!! (kononnye la) ahaha. he's got his own way. ^^_ i can never repay for all that he's done for me and my family!


2. Pakcik-yg-di-sana-itu. w/o him having the slightest clue, he has motivated me to do my best, to dream big, to tell myself that it is possible to do things that i once lost hope on. he's capable of doing so even without ME realising that he's been motivating me, except until only recently.

[ok, maybe one day when he knows my name, i'd actually give him the "present".]


3. Farah. em. how do i thank her? ntah lah.... but i just know that i am very thankful that i got the chance to know her. maybe we were together for only 6 months, but it was quality time spent together. haha, we practically relied on farah to do everything, yes, everything, u just name it!!

when i'm back here in malaysia, sometimes lost in this world called life, and i dont know who to call for help, suddenly she'd muncul there kat ym, leaving a path for me to walk again. =)


4. Mr President. incik yg tak benti2 cakap, kadang2 merapu, tapi he makes a lot of statements a.k.a ideas that makes me ponder over things, things that almost never come across my mind. stuff that makes me stop and think, look back, and reflect. stuff that makes me stop and think, look in the future, before making the next step.

and of course, i have to thank him for all the driving, for all the talking (ckp2 lagi? huah huah. byk sg ckp ke?) -- here, talking as in the communications with the adni family. die ni lah yg rajin lepak2 kat adni tu. the most bermanfaat lepak i can ever think of maybe?

(hehe, kalau encik ini baca, jgn mara ye sbb org kata byk ckp. mmg byk cakap pun kan? ^^_)


5. Uncle Abang n Uncle Adik. they wont understand, but still...... hem, they're the best stress relief AND bored relief "machines" that can ever exist on earth. (although i can just lari if they're in a bad mood. hehe) and thus, it goes w/o saying that i have to thank the mum XDXD oh, besides the twins, thanx to her for the electronic "gadgets" in her office room, and of course the company esp when no one's home.


6. Alia. haha. i'm amaZEd with our friendship. we can still stick together, despite the constant i-really-really-dont-agree with you. we're like the total opposites in loads of stuff (i noticed it when farah said "kalau nak tau mcm mana org boleh tak suke alia yg gempak ni, tanya atiqah") which implies that i do LOOK like i hate her. yeah. kind of. especially when i disagree. take note, it's always me who disagrees. she's always fine with everything. haha. almost.

i should really thank her, esp the part where she has to bear with my "attitude". she gives me a lot of reminders too, and yeah, heaps of constructive debates. but all in all, i always know that if at any day, at any rate, i need someone to turn to, she will always be there. she never said that, i never did that, but i just know it, and maybe one day i will need it.


7. Ukhti Nela. last time i used to be annoyed with her, and i know that she too, was annoyed with me. but now i guess things have change - maybe becoz we went to seperate uni, (so i dont see her that often thus can't annoy her that often), or maybe it was just becoz we've grown up.

she reminds me on issues on the state of muslim ummah, esp palestine, when almost none other around me does so. she's there to answer ad-hoc questions that come to my mind, when i feel in doubt about something, about anything. and of course, when i'm bored to death looking at the letters in my books, i'd peek in her room and say "nak main burger shop" ahahhaha..... laptop sendiri ada, tapi nak main kat situ jugak. mcm la tak bley install.......


8.Biah, Anisah. mereka2 inilah yg mengajak ana ke program2 "bina-badan" dan ana juga akan mengheret mereka2 ini utk menemani ana. walaupun jarang2 sekali, tetapi mungkin sudah terlalu banyak untuk dihitung. =) dan semestinya apabila ana bersama2 mereka + alia, gelak ketawa pasti kedengaran. gUmbira....

(uhuhuhu.... lama gile k nak buat ayat kat atas ni. dah lah cacat je bunyinye **bhlekh**)

oh, not forgetting, they give me all sorts of reminders too XOXO


9. Elf, Aneesah. if not for the blogs, i would have lost contact with them. ok, actually i've never really gotten to know elf, and i almost already forget how aneesah was (except her quiteness n innocent looking face). believe me, their posts would sometimes be the "light of the day". you can never tell when it's gonna come, but keep on visiting, u'll find it when u need it most.

and lately, Fuddy's n Alia's is giving the same blog-effect too =) i've only recently started to read their posts ^__^


10. Umi Wan wa Uncle. ahah. they made life in yemen live-able, although i should say that maybe they've pampered us a little bit too much. nevertheless, i am so grateful in knowing them. maybe i cant explicitly say what they've done for me, but the constant care and concern they've shown is priceless.


11. Kak Aisyah. she feeds me, and thus my survival today. although sometimes i refuse to eat even when i'm practically dying out of hunger, her constant efforts made me force myself to gulp them down. tak pernah ada usrah se-constant ni lah katakan... =) || it's been only 3-4 months since we started them, but i already feel that it's been there forever. again, i cant explicitly say what she's done, but insyaAllah, she will continue helping me in this battle. this battle called life.


12. Amad (not AJ). thanks for the things that we've done together, for the memories now treasured, for the things that he's taught me unknowingly. we were soo different, worlds apart, thus he gave me a peek on how things are over there, how hard life can be. he taught me how to appreciate things, made me be thankful for all that i have.

he taught me that if we give someone something, do not expect anything in return, for if we do not get anything, we'll just regret that we've done so in the first place, forgetting that the "something" might have actually changed that someone's life.


13. Nahela. ok, i made a llloooong post on her, so i might as well not duplicate. --click here

and oh, Tee Seng. we're basically the hye and bye friends, but between the hye-s and bye-s, i have learnt a lot from him.


14. Pak Wito. i met him for several days only, but his compliment is treasured till today, giving me the motivation to continue with life, making me feel that i am worth a person, not someone who's ignored, not someone on the "sidelines". --- u'd never believe what he said. ahahaha......


15. i cant decide who to put for the last one. HR? HAZ? they've taught me, in one way or another, HR, esp, whose "teaching" can never be replaced by any other.


if it wasnt for these people, i would not have been the person i am today.... of course there are many others whom i have left out, but it doesnt mean that they are not appreciated.

thank you!

** all in all, alhamdulillah for everything that He's given me! **