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I am not in my right mind. I am mad over every single tiny thing. I am stressed. I really need a break.

There are some things in life that we have no control over – many things actually – and the different behaviour of different people actually determines whether they succeed in life, or they don’t.

Of course you might turn around and say that the different opportunites and different trials brings everybody to different heights, but the basic principle is that no matter how great the opportunity, or how hard the trials are, if you don’t have the right attitude, you’d never ever succeed in life.

I am all stressed out now – and I wonder whether it really was my attitude that went wrong.

I planned for an appointment, but it was delayed for many2 times. I waited and waited – till now the appointment is not on yet. There’s been a 3 day delay. And it’s really killing me. Yesterday there was a slight hope – but it disappeared this morning. It’s delayed again. Four miserable days. I really really really hope that it can go through this evening. I really really really do.

Four days can pass by in a blink of an eye, but when u're waiting for something very very very important in your life, it seems like forever. Right now my main concern is that i havent missed the train. i am very late, but i hope it's still there waiting for me to go on board.

Another unavoidable problem: my machine keep on making funny stuff. hard drive problem la, memory problem la, profile problem la. aaaalllll sorts of problem. it's really driving me nuts. MIS issued to me a loaner's machine THREE times. (we get loaner's when out machine go wrong and MIS need to fix it). i had to drive alllll the way from clients back to office - for i dunno how many times already. mind u, the road is jam, IF it's not baad jam. and mind you, a manual and non-tinted car does not help at all. the eyes are not used to the glaring heat. sun glasses are of little help. headaches found its way.

the most annoying part was the fact that the machine would start making problems after a few hours i collected it from MIS. kat MIS it works just fine, but by the time i reach client's place, it happily hang itself. n yes, i am, in a way, ditched to doom.

anyone with suggestions of how to avoid stress? not cure please...

|| welcome to the working life. i have to face it with a brave face.

i have to face it with a brave heart. ||

but no, by no means am i regretting my decision to undergo this 3 month training. i have to face it some day anyways. why not learn it now.