fuh.. fuh.. **panting**

at last. time for a proper entry. after all the bugging, my brother let me use the comp. i'm very sure he's really pissed off with me, but hey, he's been playing almost non-stop for the past few days - isnt it fair for me to use for a while now, after all the work and study i've been doing day and night?

it's been a loong tiring week.... but i hope everything was worth it.

starting final period audit means a lot of OTs to do, and at first i told myself that i wont bring back any office work and do them at home, (especially when i'm only doing training now), but due to some reasons i had to. the gam admin work was too much. huho. while people were helping out for the door gifts for the wedding, my hands were on the keyboard. T_T

looking back, i've noticed that i have been turning down people asking for favours. all sorts of reasons come - nak avoid jam to office in the morning, need to finish some work, havent done homework, dah janji dengan org lain la, etc etc. is it really neccessary for us to cut down existing responsibilities while taking up new ones? we cant deny the new responsibilities coming, but how do we keep the existing ones? or is that where prioritising comes in? huhu.

monday marked the day anisah took off - and she'd be away for quite some time. 6 years. ok. that's a loong time.. hem. 6 of us were supposed to send her, but there was last minute pull outs due to some reasons - only 4 of us went. kitorang sampai lambat, so managed to see her kejap sangat. uhoh. kesian kak aishah. she thought the flight was 11am and was already at klia at 9am, only to know that the flight was actually 11pm...

i'm sure we'd all miss her - especially during usrah. i envy the fact that she's there - ready to learn, ready to experience. hem. how i'd love to be in there. but hey, Allah has promised only the best - a different kind for each of us - so have faith in Him. =)

Nela’s wedding was on Saturday, so for the whole one week, everybody memanglah very the busy preparing stuff. But me? the wedding atmosphere wasn’t really felt – and it’s especially because I’m out of the house most of the time. I came home Thursday night after class, only to see the tents up already. I was like “eh, when is the wedding again?” It was only two days away.

I went back home from office early on friday, just to peek at the wedding preparations going on at home, before attending p5 class. There were quite a number of people, but I should say belum full house. I ate dinner and rushed for class….

Arrived home about 10pm++, by then the house was full already. People everywhere - inside, outside, next door. Huho. And I thought I wouldn’t have anything much to do – coz org lain dah siapkan the door gifts what not. But I was sooooo wrong.

Too many ideas poured on one thing was not at all good, and I guess that made things only waay worst. Kejap jadi cemni, kejap jadi cemtu. etc. etc. At last lepas dah tukar “design” I don’t know how many times, the final “design” ended up to be the original one, plus a bit of deco only. Now I know why people say “too many cooks spoil the soup”. **blegh**

my hp rang around 2 3o, we were to pick up a friend at pudu who came all the way from penang. my abah dint pick up his hp, so i had to ask help from a friend.

sometimes i wonder, are they never tired of helping? dah lah last minute, pukul 2 30am pulak tu. i mean, you can say thats what true friends do, and thats what they are for, but isnt there such thing as too much? its not like this is the first time i've ever asked help from them.

pagi2 buta when i was the only one left in the living room, i kept on telling myself that i'm doing this as a sis and as a daughter, to keep me going. diorang? what is the strong reason that kept them going? or is that what you call ukhwah in islam? - taking each other as real brothers and sisters in islam

anyways, alhamdulillah the wedding went on well - thanks to every single little effort that everybody put in. hope she's doing great now. i will definitely miss my single sister, but everybody has to move on, dont we? ^__^

hahah. i had class on sunday. i went to see mr chan first thing. i could clearly see his relieved face when i told him that i have already asked woon to record the lectures. ya lo. the 6 hrs lecture was on the utmost important topic for this sitting - had i missed it, chances of passing is super duper low.

and the last thing i want is for him to think that i am not serious about my studies - coz if he does think that way, i am so doomed the next time i ask him questions. with that also, the chances of me passing will reduce significantly. something i really cant afford.

anyways, i got only 3 weeks left, then all will be back to normal. =)