s.m.a.c.k.s

it first started out like this - my friend was saying, ade kawan die ni suka suki je nak dissappear whenever she feels like so. her parents dont know where she is, the friends dont know where she is. and when she feels like it, she'd just mucul balik like nothing ever happened.

this girl was supposedly from a sekolah agama, wearing tudung, innocent looking, whatnot whatnot. but somehow, after a few years in uni, she started to go wild. her housemates mcm terkejut gile the first time she wears short skirt (but could say or do nothing except make faces with each other).

but u see, it's no big deal for a person to go to a sekolah agama, i mean, anyone can enroll to a sekolah agama, whether you like it or not. and it's not the sekolah agama label that's gonna make u act like org yg beragama -- it's the iman that you have inside that makes you act like a muslim.

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uhuh. so here i am. nauzubillah, i dont want to be anywhere near her situation, but if i dont avoid it concoiusly, only time will tell how i would end up like. of course no one changes that drastic, like, um, i mean, you cant wear tudung (becoz you want to) this minute, and the next minute you're all in only god-knows-what outfit. it'd take some time. so when we're still within that time, conciousness must always be there.

frankly speaking, now i seriously feel like my hayaa is slowly depleting. no. i take that back. not slowly depleting. it's as fast as how time passes by. i need look for it again. i need to have it in the reach of my arms. i need it to be in the grasp of my hand. i need it to be embedded in the heart - so no one, nothing can ever take it away from me.

alhamdulillah, i have friends who are willing to remind me. hopefully they're not there only to remind me that short skirts is a no-no thing in public (nauzhubillah not to that point), but insyaAllah these friends that i have, they are there to remind me when i have taken a step away from the right path. please ppl. do whatever you need to. please dont ever lose hope on me. no matter where i am, no matter what i am. i'm counting on you guys. please.

He gave me a reminder last saturday, but it was something that i took seriously only for a very short while. now He has sent me a reminder again.

"Fabi-ayyi ala-i rabbikuma tukaththiban"

please ya Allah. keep me in Your deen. the perfect deen. please ya Allah. help me to appreciate Your deen. the perfect deen. please ya Allah. make me strong to face this world.

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so why must I cover up and all? The answer is simple. Because I am a muslim. Why must muslims cover up? Because Allah has commanded us to do so. We muslims believe that Allah is the One and Only God. We muslims have faith in Him. Islam itu agama wahyu (the term I learned from Bro Shahkirit is “samawi”) and it is not a deen which is based on merely akal or logic.

But Allah knows best how humans are, and He has made a deen that perfectly fits the nature of humans, thus the deen is logical.