*tooooT*

Relationships. Love. Marriage. Yep. That’s what it’s all about lately. My sister just had her wedding party, my aunty is getting engaged, my cousin is getting engaged, my classmate in high school is about to get married! So of course I cant run away from questions like “when is your turn?” or statements like “u must be next”

For the time being, I do not believe in such things yet. Well, I do believe that such things are true, they are in fact a-matter-of-fact, but I cannot relate it to my personal life yet. I mean, how can I love that someone soo much for the rest of my life and live with him for the rest of my life and never get tired of him??? It doesn’t make sense! Em. Not yet at least.

I know I am NOT abnormal, that is for sure – coz although I do not belive in these lovey dovey stuff, I have had crushes on guys. I have admired guys. Those feelings of which mean i am normal, but I will never ever categorize these feeling as cinta BECAUSE they’re N.O.T!

I don’t understand situations where people can say they love each other one moment, and break up the next. And then meet other people, and do the same thing. Oh god. is that how cheap love is?

A question that I ask myself: if I am still not able to love the Lord who created me, who loves me, who gave me rizq, who gave me protection, who gave me health, -- how can I love someone who gives me practically and virtually nothing compared to what Allah gives me. InsyaAllah after I am able to love God, only then those lovey dovey stuff can come true, for me. insyaAllah.

**will soon be updated** of course there are other things that makes me say "alah, i'm not planning for anything yet" but on the other hand, there too are things that makes me say "i should try consider it in this near future"