accept my weakness?? that's totally out of question! i was dumbstruck. i really was. how could he just say that casually with a-matter-if-fact-ly tone?? never in my life had anybody suggested that i simply accept my weakness. well, none that i remember of. everybody kept on saying : improve yourself, improve yourself, suggesting a thousand and one ways of doing so.
all my life, this few recent years especially, i tried so hard to become something that wasnt me. my reason: to improve my weakness. i have so much envied others who were gifted for it. who are naturally born with it. and yes, the positive outcomes are very much visible and distinct. so i thought i should try to be that way. a tenth of it is already great.
but. there came a day when i was given a whole new perspective of things. why struggle so hard to improve that something, which after all, is your attribute - when you can achieve the ultimate goal alright by other means? wasnt too smart ei?
i guess that's why ppl say "begin with an end in mind."
i'm still learning to accept this particular weakness though. achieving the ultimate goal will require a different sort effort - something which i have yet to discover in me.
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