a lot of people who do bad actions know that it is not the right thing to do. but they do it anyways. why? because it takes less effort, and the gain is almost instant. the best part is they too know the fact that results that come instantly also vanish the same.
well, that is at least true when you compare to the effort in striving to do good. and the gain, omg, they take ages to materialise. ages. they never come instantly. never. but that is the price you pay to get long lasting results. continual strength, unremitting patience, persistence : for a period of time that would definitely seem endless.
but really, does it stop there? how much less effort does it take to not do the right thing? because right now it seems like even the effort to do the not so good stuff are tiring.
today, i have to admit that they are tiring. they really are. because although i know that the results instantly come and instantly vanish, deep deep down in my heart, i yearn for it to have the long lasting results, maybe not the same, but at least a little bit longer than just "vanishing"?
i realise that it's like having to take that bitter pill to cure your illness. you hate taking that pill. it's almost like you'd rather die sick than taking that pill. so the doctor gives you an option : drink a nice tasty medication everyday for the rest of your life, not to cure but only to control the illness OR take that bitter pill everyday for 10 years, that would guarantee cure.
it's really up to me to choose. if i take that bitter pill everyday in the hope of cure - even if i die along the way, at least there is the satisfaction that comes with it : i have done the correct thing, i have striven to do good. there is a big difference, when you lie down in bed at the end of each day, tired, but satisfied. i don't want to lie down in bed, tired, but dreading the fact that i have to wake up again the next day to put in effort (which may be less) but brings me nowhere to the long lasting results that my heart, every heart, yearns for.
so : just take that bitter pill. in 2 years, hopefully, i won't find it that bad anymore. so maybe the journey in the next 8 years would be smooth sailing? well, unless they stop producing the pill, things would be alright isnt it? even so, i can just buy out the shareholding of some pharmacy manufacturer and make a veto decision to continue producing them. there is always a way for things to happen. if that is the best for me, it will happen.
|| there is no journey that takes forever. they just seem to take forever ||
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