bing and bong

(bing and bong, bing and bong, bing and bong)
fly across the universe
and play among the stars
in their home in space

there's a tiny planet calling
a new exciting day
and we're on our way

heheh. no. don't ask me why i put up that song. i just feel like it. ^^_

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huhu. yep. as a matter of fact, i did skip daurah y'day. i mean, what was i to do? ditinggalkan di tangga terbesar kat gombak tu. of course it was partly my fault, being a bit lmbt, but NO oNE called!! ok there was supposed to be 2 trips, the first one departed early. but it ended up that the 2nd trip never came...

so, yeaah. bila dah pukul 9 (after waiting for more than setengah jam) i found out that i had to drive there alone. huhu. kemalasan melanda. heh. tapi siap boleh decline offer kak aisyah. mmg snanye takmo pegi kan?? *__* headed back home...


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last weekend i had a marathon class with mr micheal from UK. mmg intensive gile2. a light of hope at the end of a tunnel. kalau dulu tgk soalan p3, i had too much time to write, sbb tak tau nak tulis ape. after going for his rev class, smpai tak tersempat2 nak habis. either way it's not good news, but at least the latter is better, coz now i can practice more Qs to prepare my 3 hour war with time...

anyways, biasanye ade usrah on sunday mornings, but that day postpone petang coz kak aisyah ade ad-hoc meeting. mmg mule2 plan takmo pegi. mmg sgt2 takmo pegi. senang je nak bagi alasan: habis kelas lmbt.

tapi.... at last..... paksa jugak diri pegi..... rasa mcm ade yg object kalau tak pegi. thank you Allah. an important reminder was brought about during usrah that day...


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ade yg criticize, i study too hard. 24/7 stuuudddy je kerja. tak reti nak buat benda lain kee?? huhuhu.... well, yeah, from one perspective, it's not something too "healthy". ye laa... cube la pegi buat kerja amal ke, da'wah ke, volunteering ke - get a life for once!

tapi tu la. i have my own reasons.

1: i have to perform. being among the very few muslims around in college. i bring the image of islam. of course banyak yg masih rongak in my behaviour, but should i not at least show them yg we muslims can still perform? WITHOUT any bumi privileges

2: i'm not that intelligent. so in order to perform, i need a LOT of practice. takkan nak tawakkal alaAllah je, but knowing well that i can only finish a 1 and 1/2 hour question in 2 and1/2 hours?? kenalah ade usaha

3: i cannot afford to fail. i have my own ego. (mind u, study mcm nak rak dapat pass je k.) so yeah, if i dont study, maybe fail sampai 3 kali? um, i guess that's normal for ACCA students. huho. the best record made that i've heard of is fail 8 kali. audit paper. hoisyo. but how bad can an audit paper get?

--- which reminds me. ms sheila really 'bising-ed' that i significantly underperformed in my audit paper. then i was like "nevermimd, it's already the past!". free free je dpt her stern look and "THAT'S NOT THE POINT!" huhoho. but what is the point? what i got for my audit is already a matter of fact!

4: i cannot afford to fail. my parents have high expectations. i mean, of course they never marah or even squeak if u dont perform, but all the hopes that they have - i cant just crash them, can i?
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5: i have big dreams. BIG dreams. maybe only tiny weeny (not even an ant size) to what Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi had done, or wht Muhammad Al-Fatih had done. but i do have my own dreams. the faster i get out of college, the faster i can start working on my dreams.

6: aisyio. i'm stuck here. i have the point, but i dont know how to put it. maybe i'll get back to it later.....

alaahh... duduk kat college tu lame2 sgt pun buat ape... it's not like i can tingkatkan iman in some place like that.... i'll have to rely in the weekly usrah jugak.... so yeah, that's why i study real hard. but considering, not as fanatic as before? heheh. lol. but yeah, i think it's true.

at the end of the day, we are all muslims. it's just the prioritisation part that makes us different. insyaAllah everything we do are ibadah, for the sake of Allah, for the sake of muslim ummah. tapi apapepun, takde reason untuk malas pegi usrah tikki!!


huhu. it's becoming longer than intended. i plan to say more, but let's just keep that for the next post. Allahumaakum

looking fwd to riding on tuesday! ^^_ belum ada "riyadhah" for one week!