*ring**ring*

i once asked my mum: umi, susah tak nak jaga anak-anak macam kitorang?

one second after i accidentally blurted it, i realised the question was more than just stupid. thinking back, it was a totally idiotic question. it really was. what prompted me to ask was another different story, but still, my mum did answer.

"alhamduillah. umi tak payah risau anak2 umi kat mana"

well, ya. that was pretty much true. although we were 'everywhere', came back 2 or 3 am, she always knew where we were, and why we were out, and especially for us girls: with whom.

and i thought i will never make her worry.

but i did. and she was so upset.

i vowed to myself never ever to do it again.

a few days ago, i did it again. but this time not on purpose. i made her worry again. i did not pick up the calls.

i am known for not-picking-up-calls. yep. and especially lately, cuz i always put my hp on silent for no reason. i'm just tired of hearing the phone ring.

but i do know this cant go on. i have to put my hp back on normal mode. i cant let her worry. sorry umi.