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I have this habit. A real bad habit. So bad that I’m too embarassed to say it here. Anyways, it’s been so long since I've wanted to get rid of this habit. SO LONG. It’s been about a year already I think. But I've never succeeded. tried many ways. Some people say you have to get rid of it totally, like AT ONCE. But some others say it wont work coz u’ll just stop totally for sometime, and the habit will come again in no time. And the same exact thing happened to me. So they say you have to do it gradually. The thing is, the “gradual period” has been too long. It seems like it’s gonna go on forever.

What is the BEST way actually? What is a workable way?

I am sick and tired of this habit. It just piles on to my left-shoulder-book. It FEASTS on my time. A total waste of time. But every single day, I am tempted to do it. Every single day I give excuses to myself. Worst than the addiction to drugs or smoking? Maybe.

And so I have come to a revised solution. To PEN down my expectations. In 60 days, I want this habit to be gone. Gone for good. And I made a big fat circle on my calender, marking my start day. It’s been only 5 days. I’m already “suffering”. There’s been so so many times I was tempted to do it again. But now my motivation to not do it has increased. I have passed 5 days. 55 days left.


**an updateon 28th May: sheesh. i have broken the link. BUT. it was short. AND i am still determined to get rid of this habit. even if i have to start the 60 day cycle again. because i feel more determined than ever. i CAN do this! :) **


never NEVER give up ^.^