Bismillah

Trip to J is now OFFICIAL!!! :)  Alhamdulillah alaa kulli hal.

met the team over dinner the other day. there was us (SM and i), the previous participants who are now the alumni committee, and the team from j who came all the way down for the planning meeting (or something like that). FR seemed scary during the interview, but over dinner w his wife along, he was all smiles!

hem, one thing i've noticed what the team have in common is that although they come from "everywhere", on their name cards, it's all "ceo, consultants, partners". well you know, THAT kind of ppl. and there i was, a worker in some "unknown firm". SM too felt intimidated, but at least she had that big employer name on her namecard.

oh well, it doesn't matter now does it? because i know why i chose this "unknown firm" in the first place. and    it did turn out to be fine didn't it? oh well, did i expect it to be known by those who are totally not in the finance/audit line in the first place? :p of course not. and am i really here because i wanted the big name in the first place? of course not. i have my own reasons :)

Ok, prolly the trip is not that official yet, since I haven’t gotten my leave form signed yet. So when am I really gonna get them? Mustering all the courage to ask after J (J again?) is completed and done with.

Hoho. Speaking of the devil. (what devil u ask? The J devil of course!) because of it, I got some bashing. Oh well, I realized that as much as I hated the bashing, I knew that it was my fault for not having the job well done. And so I deserved it and it’s my share of responsibility to be sitting in front of this laptop amending the whole thing.

It wasn’t real bashing anyways. It’s called a wake up call.

I’ve been here for a bit more than a year now. Lately I did notice that my level of efficiency and determination to do things right have declined. It was high time that I be reminded in some ways. As much as I didn’t like, I had to be reminded that my daily work do affect the barakah in my rizq, and I don’t want the barakah be taken away to I?

And Alhamdulillah. Allah made sure that there were no voices raised J it may be scarier to some, but myself?  I prefer it this way.

Tiba2 teringat bila MA nak tegur kitorang. masyaAllah. He is one of the most patient human I’ve ever met in my lifetime. *the champion award goes to my mother of course* kitorang dah la task assigned tak bergerak2, siap mia and x reply email lagi. Huhu. *alamak. Belum call AH utk finalise the MR policy*

Anyways, PP in office should be over soon. Then I’d be able to give attention to stuff other than office. Especially my lessons. I lost the mood a couple of weeks ago, because I had to redo certain lessons so many times! Concentration level too low. But insyaAllah after PP, the brain is no longer jammed up with numbers.

And maybe it’s about time that I get serious about w. that's already 2 down. 

so for now, it's about
- getting over and done with pp with determination allllllll the way. no slacking allowed.
- june submission (OMG today is already 3rd june!)
- july submission
- dengar ckp ibu and register ASAP
- lessons
- w
- go through tbd checklist
- smile
- prepare for R
- decide for august?
- tell myself that diving has to wait till 2013
- keep in touch with my nakama. although we are boarding different ships :)

yosha!


alhamdulillah alaa kulli haal